This is a great exercise to empower the mind, body and spirit. For me has been very helpful because it lets me feel calm, relax, beloved, fulfill, and most important with my heart open to others. While I am doing the exercise I always imaging my father. I imaging how pure and kind he was with others and I transmit this sense to myself.
The only part that has been hard for me to focus is when I bring my mother in law to the exercise, I think I do not want to bring her to my life, so I block my self to the exercise. She is a person that has a lot of hate in her heart and her life is just that. I try think how she suffers, how alone she is, how her quality of life is poor to try to understand and be compassionate, but as soon as I see her reaction when I am around her, I back up.
So I know that it is going to take long to be able to open my heart to her. I think that I need to desired first. Now I am not.
The only thing stronger than hate is love. I understand your dilemma with your mother-in-law. Sometimes the negativity is so strong it is though we are physically shoved away by it. I can’t imagine the suffering she must endure to transmit this type of reaction. Just as we learned this week, she cannot open to you until she is able to open herself. Loving-kindness is a powerful tool. If one of you is able to utilize it, maybe it will open the door for both of you.
ReplyDeleteDiane, Thanks for your comment. I understand your point, but I feel that I do not want to open to her. She has done so much damage to our lives that I just would like her away from my life.
ReplyDeleteI hope some day I would have the wish for it. Now, I do not have it. I try ones with the exercise to bring her, but inside me didn't want it. Know I do the exercise and I do not even think about her.
Hi Yoya,
ReplyDeleteI think that it is great that you are trying and guess what?..she will be your greatest challenge, but that is all that she would be, just a challenge to give you yet another chance to enhance your practice and let your positive energy flow and expand! Don't give up; I am sure you can handle bringing her into your Loving-kindness practice.
Evelyn Castillo - Hazelnut